The reason why s because I had (and this is real) this idea that I was going to go out and find problems with the world... especially the gay world... and that I would be "scared straight" and for such be able to focus on Bethel with more conviction.
I fully get this. I approached it from a different angle. After arriving at bethel and a combination horny young man and lonely with no one to connect with to explore said horniness, I remember going to the 124 library seeking out a justifaction to fulfill my natural sexual desires?!?
HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT?!?
I can relate a lot to your story because even tho different we both had a desire that couldn't be satisfied. My gawd like you said take young men coming into their prime, stuff them all together but damnit there is no release for natural feelings as they build up. Than throw in all the commuter sisters and you had a powder keg of guilt shame and unresolved frustration waiting to blow.
Here's another roomate story for ya:
My 1st asshole roomate would lectur me after the mon WT study. One day I come home from the school service meeting and he is sitting there in lecture mode. Goes on to say how we need to talk about the cleanliness of my portion of the closet. Takes me there ask me to pull back my suits which were hanging on the bottom rack to reveal my dirty laundry bag and tells me that it is not acceptable to leave the top of the dirty laundry bag open?!?
Thats when I knew the asshole was going thru my shit!